Seems to me that my life is taking a downward spiral, and is getting way out of control. It seems as though I'll never climb back up. While my hubby and children are doing great, I can't even concentrate on my work or training. The bills are stacked and I'm losing it!
Maybe the tunnel is shorter than it seems. Maybe God has a BIG plan and He just doesn't want to spoil the ending for me.
To make things worse on myself, I refuse to let my kids know just how hard the FD training really is. Which means if Mommy is sore, Mommy hides it. Thats not easy when you are just beginning to get back into shape and are already toting ladders and charged hose lines. I know it's only going to get heavier and more difficult, but I am keeping in mind the more I train the more my body will be able to deal with again.
I know, I sound like I'm whining right...lol! I guess I am, but at the same time, maybe here I can go back and reread everything I thought and felt during all this and use it to help myself keep going during tough times.
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